More than anything right now, I just wish I could be honest. I wish I could be honest with everyone in my life--that I didn't have to hide this part of myself.
I don't need a pulpit, a parade, or a party--just an opportunity to be honest when the situation arises. All I want is to be honest.
It kills me to pretend, to lie, to make up excuses but that's what I always do. That's all I've ever known to do.
I need courage. I need strength. I need the guiding influence of Thy Spirit.
I need to know what to say and I need to know how to say it.
I need to have compassion for myself.
Heavenly Father, wilt Thou help me find the way?