I know You've always been there for me but as of late (the past few years) I haven't been able to shake the great disconnect I feel between me and heaven.
I have said my prayers in greater earnest, pleading for Your divine help, yet my life feels without anchor and I am tossed about by winds from every direction.
I have read the scriptures and the writings of the prophets with more diligence and yet I am unsure about how to move forward.
I have engaged myself in religious activity, committing myself to do my best, yet I feel disconnected from fellow believers.
I read my patriarchal blessing, yet the obstacles I face in life make it difficult to see Your divine promises ever coming to pass in my life.
I spend greater time with family, yet I feel so estranged from every one of them.
I feel aloof to existence.
Mine eyes are wet with tears.
I never envisioned my life becoming what it has.
I don't know where to begin. I don't know where to go. I don't know how to get help.
Please, if You get this letter, "help Thou my unbelief". Help me feel connected to life again.
Love,
Job
